Daily, Parenting After Loss, Pregnancy After Loss

Overcoming the Fear

As I saw this come across my Facebook wall this morning, I couldn't help but think of this in terms of my pregnancy with Madeline after losing Joshua. Losing Joshua was a horrible, awful nightmare.  It was my world crumbling.  It was life crashing down around me.  It was dreams ending.  It was the worst… Continue reading Overcoming the Fear


The Weight of Grief

I'm guessing it's all of the rapidly approaching holidays, or maybe it's just the seasons changing. Whatever "it" is, I've noticed the grief deepening lately. The heavy weight of the hurt and the ache has slowly been building. The tears have been falling all too easily. I'm sure some of that is just pregnancy hormones… Continue reading The Weight of Grief


Innocence Lost

It's surreal to think that this time last year I was pregnant with our first child. I was almost 12 weeks along. Nearing the end of the first trimester. I was looking forward to finding out the gender and to the end of morning sickness. Everyone (doctor included) kept saying how our risks of a… Continue reading Innocence Lost


Big News

Patrick and I are excited (and terrified) to announce that we are expecting our precious little rainbow in April 2014. There are a million and one thoughts rolling through my brain regarding this pregnancy. I'm excited. I'm scared. I'm nervous. I'm hopeful. I'm calm. I'm overwhelmed. I'm everything all at once. This has been one… Continue reading Big News


Capture Your Grief Project

In 1988 President Reagan proclaimed October as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. "When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn’t a word to describe them."  - President Reagan… Continue reading Capture Your Grief Project


Faith Sustains

When everything else has been torn from us, we are left with nothing but our faith. It is our faith that sustains us. It is our faith that strengthens us. It is our faith that gets us through each day. In the last seven months I have had everything I hoped for, dreamed of, and… Continue reading Faith Sustains


A Sacred Dance

Joy and grief dance around together inside my heart. Each one trying to take the lead. It is an unusual feeling to be both happy and sad at the very same moment. Every milestone brings a smile and a tear. The memories of carrying Joshua inside my womb are still so fresh...so raw. The day… Continue reading A Sacred Dance