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Madeline’s Story

I was honored to be asked by Lindsey to share Madeline's birth story over on her new site Pregnancy After Loss Support. The familiar wave of nausea had hit me hard. I crawled back in bed only to find myself huddled in the bathroom once again five minutes later. I had one test left from… Continue reading Madeline’s Story

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1 Year

My Dear Joshua Patrick, My sweet boy, oh how I miss you and wish you were here with us today.  I would have baked you your very first birthday cake and laughed as you smeared the blue and white frosting across your face as you tried to mash the vanilla cake into your open mouth… Continue reading 1 Year

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Remembering

To wake up every day with out your precious child is one of (if not the absolute most) the most painful things that a person can ever experience. To wake up every day and have faith that God is still there in the midst of the hurt, the pain, the grief and the ache takes… Continue reading Remembering

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Capture Your Grief Project

In 1988 President Reagan proclaimed October as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. "When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn’t a word to describe them."  - President Reagan… Continue reading Capture Your Grief Project

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These Days

These days I am still breathing. Trust me when I say that that is an accomplishment. These days I am trying to choose joy over the grief. Some days I fail miserably at this. These days my grief has become more internal. I don't (usually) cry unless I'm alone or with only Patrick. I try… Continue reading These Days

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A New Perspective

It's easy to get wrapped up in our own lives, grief or no grief, we all do it from time to time. We focus on ourselves and forget that we are not the center of the universe and that there are others around us who are going through big life stuff too. Sometimes, we are… Continue reading A New Perspective

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An Anchor of Hope

It's funny how connected I feel to others who have been through the loss of a child. This community is much bigger than I ever knew - which makes me very sad. But it is also extremely close - which makes me extremely grateful. Now, I would trade all of my new "friends" in a… Continue reading An Anchor of Hope

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Our Story

Today, I am the guest post over at Stillborn and Still Breathing. My husband, Patrick, and I met on August 22nd, 2010.  We both quickly realized that this was different than any other relationship that had come before.  We fell in love fast and were engaged in April of 2011.  We got married on the… Continue reading Our Story

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Right Where I Am: 20 weeks 1 day

Today I'm Guest Posting over at Loss Through the Looking Glass about where I am today in this journey through loss. Today, I am stronger than I ever thought possible. Today, I am weaker than I ever knew. I am thankful and blessed for what was... almost. I am broken and sad for what it now… Continue reading Right Where I Am: 20 weeks 1 day

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We are Okay

It seems like everyone around us has an opinion about how we "should" be dealing with Josh's death. I hear everything from; "you guys are so strong" to "you guys should really be going to a support group/counselor/psychologist..." The truth is we are okay. We are handling things the best way we know how...together. You… Continue reading We are Okay