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The Weight of Grief

I'm guessing it's all of the rapidly approaching holidays, or maybe it's just the seasons changing. Whatever "it" is, I've noticed the grief deepening lately. The heavy weight of the hurt and the ache has slowly been building. The tears have been falling all too easily. I'm sure some of that is just pregnancy hormones… Continue reading The Weight of Grief

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Innocence Lost

It's surreal to think that this time last year I was pregnant with our first child. I was almost 12 weeks along. Nearing the end of the first trimester. I was looking forward to finding out the gender and to the end of morning sickness. Everyone (doctor included) kept saying how our risks of a… Continue reading Innocence Lost

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Capture Your Grief Project

In 1988 President Reagan proclaimed October as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. "When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn’t a word to describe them."  - President Reagan… Continue reading Capture Your Grief Project

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These Days

These days I am still breathing. Trust me when I say that that is an accomplishment. These days I am trying to choose joy over the grief. Some days I fail miserably at this. These days my grief has become more internal. I don't (usually) cry unless I'm alone or with only Patrick. I try… Continue reading These Days

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Faith Sustains

When everything else has been torn from us, we are left with nothing but our faith. It is our faith that sustains us. It is our faith that strengthens us. It is our faith that gets us through each day. In the last seven months I have had everything I hoped for, dreamed of, and… Continue reading Faith Sustains

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Opening The Door to Hope

Today I am blogging over at Still Standing Mag. Please stop by and say hello. Still Standing is an amazing resource and community for parents, grandparents, siblings, and anyone who has been touched by the grief and loss of a child no matter the age. If you have never checked them out before, please do.… Continue reading Opening The Door to Hope

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Checking In

Hi. Bet you thought I forgot all about this blog. I know it's been a while. I've been busy...trying to balance grief and everyday life is a full time job and honestly I needed a vacation. I needed time to figure out this next stage in our journey. There has been so much going on… Continue reading Checking In

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A New Perspective

It's easy to get wrapped up in our own lives, grief or no grief, we all do it from time to time. We focus on ourselves and forget that we are not the center of the universe and that there are others around us who are going through big life stuff too. Sometimes, we are… Continue reading A New Perspective

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An Anchor of Hope

It's funny how connected I feel to others who have been through the loss of a child. This community is much bigger than I ever knew - which makes me very sad. But it is also extremely close - which makes me extremely grateful. Now, I would trade all of my new "friends" in a… Continue reading An Anchor of Hope

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Re-Learning Joy

After a profound loss, it is difficult to let joy back in. Often even the happiest moments feel bittersweet. You can even feel guilty for having a moment of happiness briefly outweigh your grief. It's crazy. You can have a great day - enjoying all the little moments and then suddenly griefs pops back in,… Continue reading Re-Learning Joy