Daily, Holidays, Madeline

Best.Gift.Ever.

This little girl right here is the very best gift I could have ever asked for.  In her 37 weeks out (plus 38 weeks in) she has filled so many of the empty and broken places in my heart. Her laugh is the most beautiful sound that I have ever heard and the way she… Continue reading Best.Gift.Ever.

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Daily, Letters to Maddy, Madeline, Parenting After Loss

Oh darling, don’t you ever grow up

Your little hand's wrapped around my finger And it's so quiet in the world tonight Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret I'd give all I have, honey If you could stay like that Oh… Continue reading Oh darling, don’t you ever grow up

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Madeline’s Story

I was honored to be asked by Lindsey to share Madeline's birth story over on her new site Pregnancy After Loss Support. The familiar wave of nausea had hit me hard. I crawled back in bed only to find myself huddled in the bathroom once again five minutes later. I had one test left from… Continue reading Madeline’s Story

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1 Year

My Dear Joshua Patrick, My sweet boy, oh how I miss you and wish you were here with us today.  I would have baked you your very first birthday cake and laughed as you smeared the blue and white frosting across your face as you tried to mash the vanilla cake into your open mouth… Continue reading 1 Year

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One More Reminder

It seemed innocent enough. It was a sleepy Sunday morning. No plans to attend church since I was still recovering from a sprained ankle after falling on the ice Friday morning. Patrick and I were cuddling on the couch and trying to find something to watch on television. We stopped on the Mickey Mouse Christmas… Continue reading One More Reminder

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Remembering

To wake up every day with out your precious child is one of (if not the absolute most) the most painful things that a person can ever experience. To wake up every day and have faith that God is still there in the midst of the hurt, the pain, the grief and the ache takes… Continue reading Remembering

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Holidays are Hard

Last week was Thanksgiving. We had a house full of family, too much food, and many things to be grateful for, but my mind kept floating back to last year. Last year, Thanksgiving was the day we told our families that we were having a little boy. We were so excited. Earlier that week we… Continue reading Holidays are Hard