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Another Broken Holiday

I'm dreading next Sunday.  For anyone who knows me, it is no secret that I have never enjoyed Father's Day.  I've written about the broken - non-existent relationship between my father and me multiple times.  The shorthand version is this:  My mom met my dad in Texas.  They got married.  My dad then proceeded to… Continue reading Another Broken Holiday

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Love Wasted

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go see a counselor.  This isn't the first time I've made an appointment.  I keep making them and then canceling them, because well I don't really know why.  I get scared of what they will tell me.  I'm afraid they'll tell me I'm crazy and need to be on some kind… Continue reading Love Wasted

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Home

Last summer when I first heard the song Home by Phillip Phillips, I fell in love with it.  The song had heavy radio play the whole time I was pregnant with Joshua. I would sing along each time, and I loved feeling Joshua kick and move around as I sang.  I figured he either enjoyed… Continue reading Home

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Memorial Weekend

The last couple of years, Patrick and I have spent Memorial weekend driving from cemetery to cemetery placing flowers and remember our family that has gone before us, especially those who have served our country. Last year we even went down to Springfield to decorate my great grandparents graves just like I used to do… Continue reading Memorial Weekend

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Three Months

Having a hard day.  Honestly, every day is hard.  But today my heart feels so broken. 3 months. It has been 3 whole months since Joshua was born which means that Wednesday will mark 3 whole months since I last saw his perfect face.  It's been 3 months of tear-filled days and sleepless nights.  It's… Continue reading Three Months

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Reflections and Counting Blessings

I find myself deep in reflection tonight. I keep thinking about tomorrow (Mother's Day) and what it was supposed to be.  There is this song by Steven Curtis Chapman, called With Hope.  It begins by saying: "This is not at all How we thought it was supposed to be We had so many plans for… Continue reading Reflections and Counting Blessings

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Engage-iversary

    Two years ago today after a walk around Loose Park this happened: He asked, and of course I said yes. It was the easiest question I've ever had to answer. I love you, Patrick. More today than yesterday.  I wouldn't want to walk down this road, the good or the bad, with anyone… Continue reading Engage-iversary