Daily, Holidays, Meme

2014 – In Review

1. What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before? Had a beautiful little baby girl. 2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? This is easy, since I never really make any new year's resolutions. 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Umm...yeah.… Continue reading 2014 – In Review

Daily, Holidays, Madeline


This little girl right here is the very best gift I could have ever asked for.  In her 37 weeks out (plus 38 weeks in) she has filled so many of the empty and broken places in my heart. Her laugh is the most beautiful sound that I have ever heard and the way she… Continue reading Best.Gift.Ever.

Baby Loss, Daily, Holidays, Joshua, Madeline, Parenting After Loss

There Should Be More

All my life I was raised to be grateful for what I had. This was especially true at Christmas. I may not have always gotten every gift that I had on my wish list, but my mom worked hard to ensure that my Christmas was always magical. I know we live in a society that… Continue reading There Should Be More


Maddy’s First 4th of July

Madeline's first Fourth of July was a blast (hahaha - see what I did there)! We went over to my mom's house and spent the day with her, my sister, Cathy; my brother-in-law, Jeff; my niece, Kelsey: and her friend, Jim. I made pasta salad, a veggie salad, brownies, and homemade ice cream. We had… Continue reading Maddy’s First 4th of July


Maddy’s First Father’s Day

Watching Patrick celebrate his first Father's Day without our son, broke my heart last year. Watching Patrick cuddle with Madeline this morning is doing an amazing job of healing that brokenness.  I've always said that Patrick is an amazing husband, and that is still true, but I have come to realize that he is an… Continue reading Maddy’s First Father’s Day


Maddy’s First Mother’s Day

Last year, was my first Mother's Day, but it did not look like a typical first Mother's Day.  There was no baby to cuddle. My arms literally ached from the longing to hold my sweet boy. This year, this year was much better. This year, I dressed my daughter up in a cute dress and… Continue reading Maddy’s First Mother’s Day


Maddy’s First Easter

Since Madeline is not even two weeks old, we had Easter at our house this year.  It was just us, my mom, my sister and her husband, and Patrick's mom.  My mom and sister cooked dinner and I just played dress up with Madeline.  It was nice to not have to drag her and 50… Continue reading Maddy’s First Easter


Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014

According to Ecclesiastes 3 there is a season for everything. For us, 2013 was a time to weep and to mourn. And while I know that season will continue in some shape and form for the rest of our lives, my prayer on this New Year's Eve, is that 2014 is a time to laugh… Continue reading Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014


One More Reminder

It seemed innocent enough. It was a sleepy Sunday morning. No plans to attend church since I was still recovering from a sprained ankle after falling on the ice Friday morning. Patrick and I were cuddling on the couch and trying to find something to watch on television. We stopped on the Mickey Mouse Christmas… Continue reading One More Reminder


Holidays are Hard

Last week was Thanksgiving. We had a house full of family, too much food, and many things to be grateful for, but my mind kept floating back to last year. Last year, Thanksgiving was the day we told our families that we were having a little boy. We were so excited. Earlier that week we… Continue reading Holidays are Hard