Daily, Holidays, Madeline

Best.Gift.Ever.

This little girl right here is the very best gift I could have ever asked for.  In her 37 weeks out (plus 38 weeks in) she has filled so many of the empty and broken places in my heart. Her laugh is the most beautiful sound that I have ever heard and the way she… Continue reading Best.Gift.Ever.

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Snapshots

Just some random photos from the last week. This sweet baby can go from sound asleep to screaming in 0.3 seconds flat. If she is not in my arms, this is how Madeline would prefer to sleep at night. I can lay her down on her back, but she instantly rolls onto her side and… Continue reading Snapshots

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Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014

According to Ecclesiastes 3 there is a season for everything. For us, 2013 was a time to weep and to mourn. And while I know that season will continue in some shape and form for the rest of our lives, my prayer on this New Year's Eve, is that 2014 is a time to laugh… Continue reading Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014

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One More Reminder

It seemed innocent enough. It was a sleepy Sunday morning. No plans to attend church since I was still recovering from a sprained ankle after falling on the ice Friday morning. Patrick and I were cuddling on the couch and trying to find something to watch on television. We stopped on the Mickey Mouse Christmas… Continue reading One More Reminder

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“And I’ll know every tear was worth it all”

A couple months ago a friend posted a link to a video of a Shane & Shane song on Facebook.  I listened to it and then I listened to it again...and again.  Each time more and more of it sinking in, touching the broken parts of my heart.I began to sing along.  "Though You slay… Continue reading “And I’ll know every tear was worth it all”

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How Are You Today

While at work last week, a coworker came in and simply asked, "How are you today?" It's a simple question. Innocent. I did not expect that it would bring me to tears. Really, I'm not even sure where they came from. But there I was, unable to hold back the tears that were welling up… Continue reading How Are You Today

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Capture Your Grief Project

In 1988 President Reagan proclaimed October as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. "When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn’t a word to describe them."  - President Reagan… Continue reading Capture Your Grief Project

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A Sacred Dance

Joy and grief dance around together inside my heart. Each one trying to take the lead. It is an unusual feeling to be both happy and sad at the very same moment. Every milestone brings a smile and a tear. The memories of carrying Joshua inside my womb are still so fresh...so raw. The day… Continue reading A Sacred Dance

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A New Perspective

It's easy to get wrapped up in our own lives, grief or no grief, we all do it from time to time. We focus on ourselves and forget that we are not the center of the universe and that there are others around us who are going through big life stuff too. Sometimes, we are… Continue reading A New Perspective

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An Anchor of Hope

It's funny how connected I feel to others who have been through the loss of a child. This community is much bigger than I ever knew - which makes me very sad. But it is also extremely close - which makes me extremely grateful. Now, I would trade all of my new "friends" in a… Continue reading An Anchor of Hope