I often find myself telling Madeline that broken crayons still color.
I think it’s one of the more profound words of wisdom I have given my three-year-old so far. While I’m quite literally reassuring her that the broken Crayola in her hand will in fact still color in her coloring book just as beautifully as before, it means so much more.
This is advice that I hope she is able to apply to more than just her crayon box.
In life, there are times where she will feel broken. Her heart, her spirit, her motivation. I want her to remember that she is still full of beautiful colors that even when broken can still color.
She was made for a purpose and even if it might not always feel clear to her, she was created to do great things.
We call her our rainbow baby because she was born after the storm of our loss. She brought light and color into our lives where there was much darkness and pain. Everywhere she goes she leaves a path of color and joy. I believe this is part of her purpose. Joy. She brings joy wherever she goes.
I want her to remember that even those days where she feels like the world is working against her, that smile of hers is enough to bring joy to someone around her. A broken crayon can still color.
Even while she is nursing a broken heart and feels like she might never love again, she can hold a door open for someone and that might make the difference in their day. A broken crayon can still color.
If she someday finds out that her best friend has lied behind her back, she can go and sit at the lunch table with the new girl in school and make a new friend. A broken crayon can still color.
I want her to always remember that she is here for a reason. She was created for a purpose. Even when she feels lost and aimless God can still use her and work through her. Sometimes it is that very brokenness that He uses.
Our own brokenness gives us empathy and grows our compassion. It helps us to know the right words to say when we meet someone walking down the same broken road.
While I wish nothing but sunshine and rainbows for my beautiful little girl, I know that she will face the storms too. I know that she will, unfortunately, get her heart broken, have her spirit broken, or just feel broken down at times. I just pray that she will have the strength to know that even when broken she is still beautiful inside and out and capable of changing the world.
That sparkly pink crayon can still color just as bright even if it breaks.
But for now, I’ll just keep buying her new crayons when hers break. I’ll fix as much of her brokenness as I can for as long as I can.