As I saw this come across my Facebook wall this morning, I couldn’t help but think of this in terms of my pregnancy with Madeline after losing Joshua.
Losing Joshua was a horrible, awful nightmare. It was my world crumbling. It was life crashing down around me. It was dreams ending. It was the worst pain I’ve ever experienced.
I could have let that be the end of my story. I could have let that fear, that pain, that nightmare consume me. Define me.
Instead, I got brave. I let my heart open up to the idea of another child. I let my head fill with dreams of rocking a baby to sleep. Of playing peek-a-boo and singing lullabies. Of holding a living, breathing, healthy baby in my arms.
For those of you struggling with the loss of a pregnancy, a baby, a child, or whatever nightmare is currently consuming your life – please don’t shut out your dreams.
I’m not naive. I know that not everyone gets their rainbow after the storm. We are blessed beyond measure that we have. However, for those who are standing in the middle of the nightmare – keep dreaming. Your dream may look different now than it did 9 months ago, but it can still be beautiful.
Hold on to hope.