This time last year I wasn’t sure I would ever be able to feel true joy again. I thought I would forever be broken and hurting. Today, I find so many moments where I feel true joy and such an a amazing sense of peace. While I still miss Joshua intensely, and in many ways I miss him more now than ever before, being able hold Madeline close has been such a beautiful form of therapy. I’m a long way from unbroken, and I expect to stay that way for the rest of my days, but the joy this little girl brings makes all the hurt and pain so much easier to bear.