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An Anchor of Hope

It's funny how connected I feel to others who have been through the loss of a child. This community is much bigger than I ever knew - which makes me very sad. But it is also extremely close - which makes me extremely grateful. Now, I would trade all of my new "friends" in a… Continue reading An Anchor of Hope

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Re-Learning Joy

After a profound loss, it is difficult to let joy back in. Often even the happiest moments feel bittersweet. You can even feel guilty for having a moment of happiness briefly outweigh your grief. It's crazy. You can have a great day - enjoying all the little moments and then suddenly griefs pops back in,… Continue reading Re-Learning Joy

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Recipe: Soft Pretzels

Patrick LOVES Auntie Anne's soft pretzel bites at the mall.  So naturally, I decided to try and make them at home.  They were super easy and so yummy! Soft Pretzels Ingredients: 1 1/2 cups water 1 1/4 teaspoons active dry yeast 3 tablespoons brown sugar 1 1/4 teaspoons salt 1 cup bread flour 3 cups… Continue reading Recipe: Soft Pretzels

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Our Story

Today, I am the guest post over at Stillborn and Still Breathing. My husband, Patrick, and I met on August 22nd, 2010.  We both quickly realized that this was different than any other relationship that had come before.  We fell in love fast and were engaged in April of 2011.  We got married on the… Continue reading Our Story

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Fear, Burdens, and Guilt

Lately we've been talking a lot about the idea of having another baby and what that would mean for us at this stage in our grief/healing process. There is a lot of thought that goes into the decision to have a child. Even more when you are considering a baby after a loss. We have… Continue reading Fear, Burdens, and Guilt

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Summer Fun

A couple months ago I posted our Summer Bucket List. We've been steadily checking things off. We are doing our best to make the most out if this summer despite it being quite different than we had planned. We have been to several Royals games. We even got to see one of our photos up… Continue reading Summer Fun

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Snapshots

Some of my favorite moments from the last week.  Follow me on Instagram. I found a squirrel eating a bagel outside my office last week.  He was so preoccupied with the bagel that I was able to get close and take so funny/cute photos. Our house is grey.  Grey siding, grey front door, blah, blah, blah.… Continue reading Snapshots

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Right Where I Am: 20 weeks 1 day

Today I'm Guest Posting over at Loss Through the Looking Glass about where I am today in this journey through loss. Today, I am stronger than I ever thought possible. Today, I am weaker than I ever knew. I am thankful and blessed for what was... almost. I am broken and sad for what it now… Continue reading Right Where I Am: 20 weeks 1 day

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We are Okay

It seems like everyone around us has an opinion about how we "should" be dealing with Josh's death. I hear everything from; "you guys are so strong" to "you guys should really be going to a support group/counselor/psychologist..." The truth is we are okay. We are handling things the best way we know how...together. You… Continue reading We are Okay

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In Flames

  Thursday night as I watched my husband light fireworks, sparks flying in different directions and colors I couldn't help but wonder what those fireworks looked like from Heaven.  I'm sure the view is pretty amazing.  I watched the smile on Patrick's face and my heart ached.  He would be such a good daddy.  Later… Continue reading In Flames