Honestly, I’m struggling today. I’m not sure what started it, but the tears began to fall on the drive in to work and they haven’t really stopped much since. I keep trying to just take deep breaths and push them down, but they seem to just keep falling. We’re edging ever closer to the 3 month mark. This Friday will be 12 weeks since I last held my son as he struggled to take his last breath. 36 hours with him was just not enough.