The news gives me anxiety. I watch it and I'm always afraid and ashamed by what I see. Violence. Hate. Fear. It's really just too much. I live in middle America. I live in a very diverse suburb of a diverse city in Missouri. My daughter will go to school with children of all races,… Continue reading Life Lesson: Be Kind. Always

My sweet Madeline, You have filled my life and my heart with such great joy these last four years. I still see this sweet chubby cheeked baby when I look at you, but I know how quickly you are growing up.   You have a light around you that shines so bright. From the moment… Continue reading Four

I mean Patrick and I both already scheduled today off of work, because worst day ever we just need to be around each other, but how did my 4-day weekend turn into a 7-day weekend? I’m over the ice and just want to be able to get out of my house. These last few days… Continue reading Memories

Five. I caught myself staring at your sleeping sister’s face last night just trying to catch a glimpse of you. I long to know what you would look like today. What your favorite color would be. What you would excel at, and what would make you laugh uncontrollably. I try to catch glimpses of you… Continue reading Five

Five. I caught myself staring at your sleeping sister’s face last night just trying to catch a glimpse of you. I long to know what you would look like today. What your favorite color would be. What you would excel at, and what would make you laugh uncontrollably. I try to catch glimpses of you… Continue reading Five

5. Tomorrow you should be five. This year words feel inadequate for how I’m feeling. I had a bit of a nervous breakdown yesterday. My emotions got the better of of me. I took a pill and now I just feel numb. I don’t want to feel this week. I don’t want to think about… Continue reading Tomorrow